my existence updated

Today will make 11 days that i've been in Turkey, today is June 8th. Its funny how depending upon how you look at that and the way you say it, makes it seem either a long time or a short time, one that's dragged on or one that's gone fairly quickly. If you think of all the hours i spend running after and trying to calm down bratty kids 11 days feels like a lifetime. if you think of all the nights that i go to sleep alone and the mornings i wake up along its an eternity. But when you look at it on the calendar, i came in may and its now june (and almost the middle) than it seems like its going by quickly. Perspective and Attitude. that's what makes the difference. 

And amazingly enough I was reminded of that this morning by little miss Lal, who  never wants to wake up in the morning but fights just as furiously to stay up at night. Lal was crying and trying to escape the room so she could go talk to her mother, but i was able to sit her down and have a "big girl conversation" so we breathed and talked. and i told her she had to go to school whether she liked it or not and if you have to do something wouldn't you rather be positive about it and make the most of what you have to do? 

so the question is, wouldn't i rather be positive about the opportunity i have in turkey, to help the family out and to teach the kids, than wishing i was hope every day? yes i would. Not easy, but something to work on. 

i now have a big sunburn all down my front, my shoulders, my chest, my stomach and my legs(but only to my knees...how that happened i dont know) I keep forgetting i'm white and i burn easily. ouch. 

so far i've changed 3 dirty diapers. and yes 3 times out of 11 days when he goes through about 3 a day isn't a big number, but when he only lets you wake him up and get him dressed about twice in those 11 days, 3 is a pretty good number. plus there dirty diapers and if i dont have to, trust me i'd rather not. 

so that's my updated existence a diaper count and a changing perspective.