Today was a difficult day in the nanny world, the early morning seemed to come even earlier and isolated at the house i couldn't help but feeling lonely and upset. Can, for the most part, was good and happy today and as always Lal was the 7 year old brat she only knows how to be. It frustrates me how spoiled these children are compared to the children i was with in Thailand. They have nothing and yet they have their smiles, these kids here have everything and only seem to be able to manage tears and shouts. A little observation on what really matters in life eh?
So now it is night time and it was a long day/night. The family's extended family is over at the house and as always more people means more commotion which coincidentally translates in to more playing more playing leads to more tired more cranky more yelling. Oddly enough through it all the little sharings of solidarity between Sasha and me help to keep me from beating these kids senseless and actually giving them something to cry about. Sasha speaks turkish, russian, and german and i sadly speak only english fluently so the conversations are never very lengthy although we seem to be managing together quite well. Sasha's my home girl in the house.
Tonight carol, a nanny from the phillipines, is here watching over Zeyneps' sisters family. After everyone was put to sleep at 9;45 she finally got the chance to sit down and eat and we talked. I found out she's been here for 9 years and she wants to go to the U.S or Europe to work but because of the visa requirements and restrictions she can't. She was very helpful in acknowledging how difficult the children were and told me it would get easier. she also told me i was lucky being here only 4 months and able to return home. I may be having a difficult time now and I most definitely miss the people at home but I don't have a 10 year old daughter that I was forced to leave with my mother so I would go to another country and raise someone else's child while my own grows up with out a mother. As is the case with Carol.
So after this conversation I will begin to look at this au pair experience as extremely lucky when put into prospective.
So though the kids may be difficult spoiled brats.
Its only 4 months.
and i get to go home.
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